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Sunday, 29 March 2009 | 9:44 pm | 0 star
as usual, after solat, suplication is a must for all and the same goes to me...tp org sakit kn... fkrnye mntk tlg utk sembuh je... hmm... mcm mane lh kesudahan hidup Syirul ni... hati ni pedih sgt... ade org tu kate,Syirul bruntung sbb Allah nmpk Syirul. sbb tu Syirul diuji. alhamdulillah kalau btl mcm tu. know something? satu2nye prkr baik psl ni adlh Syirul dkt sgt dgn Allah... ade hikmahnye kn... sume ade hikmah nye... tp... bile sakit,msti cari penawarnye jgk...btl tk... however,bile igt balik,byk prkr dh jd kt Syirul.. and they hurt me...a lot. bkn mudah nk handle.. bile hati kte mule resah..lps tu kte hilng kwln..hilng diri kte dlm diri sndiri.. hati,akal,sume tk dpt dikawal.. dan kte jd org lain.. ape yg kte ade dan tu adlh diri kte,cume sepasang mate yg nmpk segale2nye yg brlaku tp kte tk blh buat ape2 utk hntikn sume kesakitan dan kepedihan yg buat fizikal kte jgk sakit.. tk mudah... btl tk mudah.. ade yg akn kate kte kene jumpe pakar sakit jiwa.. counselor.. but they don't know that i'm free frm depression and stress.. tny lh kwn2 Syirul,mk bpk Syirul.. and even myself.. syirul tk prnh tau mkne stress yg sbnr. bile Syirul rase mcm trtekan skt, Syirul terus luahkn.. bkn kt sape2,tp slalunye,Syirul akn lakarkn ats krtas.. btl Syirul byk trmenung. byk khayal.. tp Syirul tau Syirul tk prnh stress.. jd bile org kate die stress sgt ni.. byk sgt krj.. die trtekan agknye.. i really can't accept that actually.. but i respect their opinions so i didn't say anything.. die dtg bile die nk,dan die prgi bile die suke... Syirul cume nk ketenangn.. nk tenang bile solat tanpe gangguan dlm hati.. nk cari ilmu dgn tenang tanpe tibe2 die dtg and distract me.. syirul cume nk buat sume yg Syirul patut buat dgn tenang.. syirul kehilangn sbb ni.. syirul kesakitn sbb ni.. sakit sgt.. bile tibe2 sume jd tk tentu arah.. procesnye menyakitkn.. so pls Allah... help this weak slave of urs... i plead... pls... -_- -Syirulhuda- so that is that
Saturday, 28 March 2009 | 8:03 pm | 0 star
listening to her just now makes me wonder...am i destined to work hard to get what i want and what i need? maybe the answer is yes... all this while,it's not that easy to get hold of what i want and what i need... maybe that's why i always appreciate what i have...but there're also some people that said to me that i do not know how to appreciate peple that i love.... hihi... well... if i's true,then i'm really sorry... balik pd crite... dgr ape yg die ckp buat Syirul sdr sesuatu... Syirul mungkin tk dpt yg TERBAIK... dan Syirul sndiri mungkin tk layak utk dpt yg TERBAIK... tp Syirul slalu dpt yg SEBAIKNYE dan SELAYAKNYE yg Syirul patut dpt... jd... bukak mate Syirul jgk.. kte mmg patut brsyukur dgn ape yg kte ade... slalunye Allah bg kte ape yg kte prlukn...dan tk sume yg kte nk tu adlh sesuatu yg kte prlukn... jd... brsyukur dan dptkn ape yg kte prlukn je... kalau kte dpt ape yg kte nk tu... dh kire bonus dr Allah utk kte... penyayang nye kn Tuhan kte... so now... Syirul nk dptkn dulu ape yg Syirul prlukn... lps tu,kalau ade rezki lbh, blh lh dptkn lain2 yg tk brape Syirul prlukn.. prlu... tp not the priority which i should get a.s.a.p. jd tgk lh kalau ade rezki lbh kn... dan ade jgk die yg Syirul prlukn... tp tk dpt skrg ni... mungkin blm mase lg... hihi... so... kalau ade rezki jgk,Syirul akn dpt yg Syirul prlukn tu... Ameen... doakn tau... ^_^ so that is that... gtg now... c ya! ^_^ -Syirulhuda- i'm recognised?
Friday, 27 March 2009 | 12:27 pm | 0 star
i really can;t help but wonder when will it end...my life,my future,my feelings... sume ni kene mengene dgn ape yg Syirul hadapi... i want to go there... and i know i need to... kt mane2 tmpt yg Syirul fkr nk prgi,Syirul msti trfkrkn that particular place yg buat Syirul yakin... tu lh yg blh bantu Syirul utk sembuh... hmm... tp nk yakinkn yg lain jd Syirul blh ke sane,agk susah skt. sbb Syirul sndiri tk knl org tu,tk tau die mcm mane,tk tau btl atau tk ape yg Abu ckp... so it's hard to convince people... however, i'm kind of confident that that is the place. i'm sure of it.. and so... i'm missing KUIS badly.. slalu trbyg2 katil kt asrama tu...my desk tmpt slalu main lappy kak Su... bljr kt situ... stay up late at nite lg2 bile nk xm... agknye sbb rindu ni smpai sakit2 skrg ni... i'm coughing and it's unbearable... becos it's hard for me to breathe... mcm2 skrg ni.... ujian btl... tp Alhamdulillah... mcm yg seseorg tu kate,ni sume satu nikmat. walau sakit mcm mane pun,ni sume tetap satu nikmat. kdg2,bile kte brjy,kte fkr kte lh yg ushe... dan bile kte klh,kte fkr,sume ni bala... tp sbnrnye,pape pun,tu tetap satu nikmat dari Allah utk hamba2NYA... for that person,thanks for the advice... it really changes my perspective of success.. thank you... ^_^ i think i'll stop for now... gtg... babye... will it do?
Thursday, 26 March 2009 | 5:28 pm | 0 star
Alhamdulillah...thanks to Allah i've finished editing thisa blog of mine.. and thanks to the one who made this blogskin,i love it... ^_^ ok... lps ni nmpknye saye kene delete multiptly... cos i just can't handle both at a time... sape2 yg dh prnh tgk multiply saye... fhm lh saye suke ape,tulis ape,dan share ape... however,i really hope i can do better for my blog.. sbb ni edit skt2 je.. edit mane yg patut je... pape pun,hrp mane2 entry saye yg ade manfaat,dpt dishare... dan yg mane tkde faedahnye... jgn diambk ape yg tk patut plk ye... so this is it... just share ur views at my tagboard aite... ^_^ give me ur guidance... so... be pleased... Labels: this is it oh wow...
Friday, 20 March 2009 | 9:23 pm | 0 star
oh wow... it's like a dream come true... hihi...it's been a long time since i thought of making a blog and now i've realised it... thnks to u,Allah... ^_^ hope frm now,everything will go on smoothly... blogskin... cbox... i;m not very gd... but i'll try to turn this blog of mine into a wow again for me... huhu... that's all for now then...gtg now... c ya! -Syirulhuda- |
