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heart-breaking
as usual, after solat, suplication is a must for all and the same goes to me... tp org sakit kn... fkrnye mntk tlg utk sembuh je...
hmm... mcm mane lh kesudahan hidup Syirul ni... hati ni pedih sgt... ade org tu kate,Syirul bruntung sbb Allah nmpk Syirul. sbb tu Syirul diuji. alhamdulillah kalau btl mcm tu. know something? satu2nye prkr baik psl ni adlh Syirul dkt sgt dgn Allah... ade hikmahnye kn... sume ade hikmah nye... tp... bile sakit,msti cari penawarnye jgk...btl tk...
however,bile igt balik,byk prkr dh jd kt Syirul.. and they hurt me...a lot. bkn mudah nk handle.. bile hati kte mule resah..lps tu kte hilng kwln..hilng diri kte dlm diri sndiri.. hati,akal,sume tk dpt dikawal.. dan kte jd org lain.. ape yg kte ade dan tu adlh diri kte,cume sepasang mate yg nmpk segale2nye yg brlaku tp kte tk blh buat ape2 utk hntikn sume kesakitan dan kepedihan yg buat fizikal kte jgk sakit..
tk mudah... btl tk mudah.. ade yg akn kate kte kene jumpe pakar sakit jiwa.. counselor.. but they don't know that i'm free frm depression and stress.. tny lh kwn2 Syirul,mk bpk Syirul.. and even myself.. syirul tk prnh tau mkne stress yg sbnr. bile Syirul rase mcm trtekan skt, Syirul terus luahkn.. bkn kt sape2,tp slalunye,Syirul akn lakarkn ats krtas.. btl Syirul byk trmenung. byk khayal.. tp Syirul tau Syirul tk prnh stress.. jd bile org kate die stress sgt ni.. byk sgt krj.. die trtekan agknye.. i really can't accept that actually.. but i respect their opinions so i didn't say anything..
die dtg bile die nk,dan die prgi bile die suke... Syirul cume nk ketenangn.. nk tenang bile solat tanpe gangguan dlm hati.. nk cari ilmu dgn tenang tanpe tibe2 die dtg and distract me.. syirul cume nk buat sume yg Syirul patut buat dgn tenang.. syirul kehilangn sbb ni.. syirul kesakitn sbb ni.. sakit sgt.. bile tibe2 sume jd tk tentu arah.. procesnye menyakitkn..
so pls Allah... help this weak slave of urs... i plead... pls... -_-
-Syirulhuda-
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The Dreaming Star
Hi there! You've entered the dreaming land of a twinkling star~ (^_^)
I'm nothing but an ordinary girl with sweet and painful memories~
It's hard to make me talk as I'm not quite friendly~
If you want to know more, read my posts, you'll know me~
Struggling to live in this not-forever world~
Islam is my religion!
I swear that there is no other God except for ALLAH and MUHAMMAD is the messenger of ALLAH! (^_^)
Wishes, Dreams, Du'a
-To be a solehah daughter~
-To be a solehah wife~
-To be a solehah mother~
-To be a solehah 'abdullah~
-To be a able to teach and make my children understand Islam and this world~
THOSE ARE MY WISHES.. CAN YOU HELP ME FULFILL IT? (^_^)
heart-breaking
as usual, after solat, suplication is a must for all and the same goes to me...
tp org sakit kn... fkrnye mntk tlg utk sembuh je...
hmm... mcm mane lh kesudahan hidup Syirul ni... hati ni pedih sgt... ade org tu kate,Syirul bruntung sbb Allah nmpk Syirul. sbb tu Syirul diuji. alhamdulillah kalau btl mcm tu. know something? satu2nye prkr baik psl ni adlh Syirul dkt sgt dgn Allah... ade hikmahnye kn... sume ade hikmah nye... tp... bile sakit,msti cari penawarnye jgk...btl tk...
however,bile igt balik,byk prkr dh jd kt Syirul.. and they hurt me...a lot. bkn mudah nk handle.. bile hati kte mule resah..lps tu kte hilng kwln..hilng diri kte dlm diri sndiri.. hati,akal,sume tk dpt dikawal.. dan kte jd org lain.. ape yg kte ade dan tu adlh diri kte,cume sepasang mate yg nmpk segale2nye yg brlaku tp kte tk blh buat ape2 utk hntikn sume kesakitan dan kepedihan yg buat fizikal kte jgk sakit..
tk mudah... btl tk mudah.. ade yg akn kate kte kene jumpe pakar sakit jiwa.. counselor.. but they don't know that i'm free frm depression and stress.. tny lh kwn2 Syirul,mk bpk Syirul.. and even myself.. syirul tk prnh tau mkne stress yg sbnr. bile Syirul rase mcm trtekan skt, Syirul terus luahkn.. bkn kt sape2,tp slalunye,Syirul akn lakarkn ats krtas.. btl Syirul byk trmenung. byk khayal.. tp Syirul tau Syirul tk prnh stress.. jd bile org kate die stress sgt ni.. byk sgt krj.. die trtekan agknye.. i really can't accept that actually.. but i respect their opinions so i didn't say anything..
die dtg bile die nk,dan die prgi bile die suke... Syirul cume nk ketenangn.. nk tenang bile solat tanpe gangguan dlm hati.. nk cari ilmu dgn tenang tanpe tibe2 die dtg and distract me.. syirul cume nk buat sume yg Syirul patut buat dgn tenang.. syirul kehilangn sbb ni.. syirul kesakitn sbb ni.. sakit sgt.. bile tibe2 sume jd tk tentu arah.. procesnye menyakitkn..
so pls Allah... help this weak slave of urs... i plead... pls... -_-
-Syirulhuda-
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