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just things~
Friday 21 May 2010 | 11:04 am | 0 star
So? what do u think? haha... kne buat thesis a.k.a. latihan ilmiah bab 1... penyelia ustazah Nor Sa'adah.. mmg best la ngn ustzh... insyaAllah blh siap cpt... Amiin... actually da kne anta this week tp mcm busy gitu... busykn ape tah syirul pn tak tau... hehe... so ustzh kate tkpe... tp ustzh nk tgk isnin dpn... just scare kasar... rsenye klau ade pape, nnt ustzh btl2kn kot.. yela.. klau tk mcm mne nk buat nxt step kn... klau la blh... nk uat bab 2 this sem jgk... jd klau tk smpat hbs thesis this sem, blh la tnggl uat bab 3 ngn bab4 je nxt sem... hee..kul 12.30 nie nk daftar muet... da ajk kwn2 klas jgk tp dorng nk daftar nxt week... tk tau cne... syirul daftar la ngn kwn2 lain ary nie... ade la complication actually... tp syirul daftar ary nie je la... nxt 2 weeks insyaAllah syirul akn balik spore sbb nk pindah... hehe... tu pn klau tkde pape... hee... klau ade hal, nmpknye balik cuti raye je la jwbnye... aduisy... cian mk ngn bpk nnt klau syirul tk balik kn... kn... kn... actually ary nie syirul rse happy sgt3 so syirul end up jd mcm hyper skt... hihi.. tp td ade something jd yg buat syirul mcm down la jgk... tp nk uat cne... fhm je la... tkde pape pn... prkr biase je... bkn serious mne la... tp blh la jgk buat syirul grm skt... hee... so skrg tgh tnggu mse utk register muet dan sterusnye gi library utk uat thesis!! yay! mntk2 la by bsk blh la siap... blh gak rht ary ahad kn... amiin... smoge Allah prmudahkn prjlnn Syirul yg nie... amiin... tau tak???? ustaz mu'ti yg ajr kte quran sem nie,tk ajr kte lg!!! uwaa!!! sedih!! T_T tk tau spe yg ganti... tp pape pn, Syirul nk cube yg trbaik sem nie... tak mau mls2 lg.. tak mau dtg klas lmbt lg... dan tak mau transfer credit lg... sbb yg grade A blh jd grade C!! sedihnye.......... ats useheku, dpt la jgk mrkah yg memuaskn utk subject English yg Syirul amek slame 2 sem... skali tu bile transfer credit, dpt C...... >_<, sedihnye.... affect CGPA sey... tp tkpe la... utk budak"2nd sem" mcm syirul ni... kire CGPA yg Syirul dpt ni blh la utk Syirul... Alhamdulillah... and markah mantiq & falsafah da msuk!! yay!! thnk u ustzh saleha & ustaz abu.... ^_^ register course pn kire da ok da... cume usrah tk msuk2 lg... klau tk pass nnt ade mslh grad!! tak mau tak mau!! ade ke ustaz safuan nk syirul jd co-ordinator utk usrah international?? no no! syirul sbgai ktue adlh suatu gambaran yg syirul tk mau nk bygkn... ckup la syrul prnh tgk ktue prmpn yg handle international... trcabut jantungku nnt... *tepuk dahi* mntk maaf,ustaz... sye ksian la jgk... tp ustaz lantik la lelaki.. bkn sye... sye pn da ckup sibuk nie... biar la sye jd biase2 je... yg pntng ustaz msukkn usrah sye dlm portal dan sye akn usehe utk lulus k... thnk u ustaz... but no,thnks... hee.. ok2... smlm syirul mkn la ngn abu... skali tu bukak la crte lme2... haha.. lme mne je... lme yg cume slme 2 thun lps ngn hmpir stahun yg lps... crte manis & pahit... tp abu kate... "sume tu da brlalu... igt prkr tu cume akn menyakitkn je... jd kte mule hidup bru..." btl jgk... tp ade jgk mase lalu syirul yg mnghantui syirul dan syirul tkt sgt3 dgn mse lalu tu.. syirul ade la bilng abu tp rsenye die fhm kot... haha... slmbe badak ak post cam nie... mntang2 la abu mmg tk bce.. haha... tp... insyaAllah die mean ape yg die ckp... insyaAllah... amiin.. Syirul sbnrnye cume prcy ape yg Syirul nmpk... mcm tu yg Syirul nmpk, mcm tu jgk la yg syirul prcy... so, klau nk syirul prcy, jgn ckp je... tp buat jgk... sbb prbuatan tu lbh meyakinkn dr kate2... fhm kn.. hmm.. tak tau lg ape nk ckp... tp Alhamdulillah sjauh nie... sem nie, smangat Syirul mmg brkobar2 nk blljr btl2... agknye mmg da tibe msenye syirul tk blh lg main2... dan syirul pn tknk kcewe ngn dri syirul sndri... hmm.. sem nie plk, actually syirul trtekan scre prasaan...LAGI. hehe... bkn pape pn.. tp sbb rmai org pndng serong kt syirul kot... yg nmpk abu msti fkr: romantiknye laki ni... bgsnye klau dpt suami mcm nie... cube yg prmpn nmpk syirul... pehh! kan main lg dijelingnye... mcm nk trcabut biji mate... haha... tkpe2... igt org nk ke?? bile nk kawin, kate da gatal. bile tak kawin pn dikatenye kte gatal.. hbs nk mcm mne lg? Astaghfirullah... pnt la dgr ngn tgk gaye ngn ckp2 korng tu.. pnt la... tp mntk maaf sgt3 la sbb Syirul ni jd mslh dan satu hal utk difkrkn oleh korng... sorry sgt3 k... k tu je utk skrg nie... hehe... lps rndu nk post blog... paham2 je la wireless kuis nie... susah skt... hehe... k2... daa... wslm... Labels: my dream is snowing again.. ~double misery~
Saturday 1 May 2010 | 6:42 am | 0 star
yesterday... Alhamdulillah... i managed to see my result but it was a disappointment after all.. the pointer i looked at earlier turned out to be my CGPA which they processed from my results of first semester to the 4th semester and the half... what i mean by the half is... there are 2 subjects of my previous semester which have not been put in, in my portal.. so i still do not know what my result is.. now... the fear has come again... the fear of failing the 2 subjects as they were the most difficult ones... oh my... what am i to do except for feeling tawakkal as i know that i've already did my best for those papers... looking at this matter, i was kind of devastated and felt really down as i AM very worried... so i decided to tell him that i've decided to quit from being active in Lajnah in order to stabilize my studies... okay fine... my way of telling him was kind of forcing. but he gave me an example: if i was talking to another person and not him.. that particular person will definitely say... "u must be professional... others can manage their time between studies and other works... so you can do that too..." and he said,that that will be said by other person,not him. well mister... that piece of "advice" will be said by someone like YOU! not someone like ME! do you understand? haisy... i'm so scared now.. yes i know you are the leader but HELLO! do i not have the right to ask for my rights?? okay well... i'll just do as you say... so just pray that my result will turn out better than i expect so that i will stay in Lajnah okay?? this is a double misery to me... i was expecting him to say in the right way... no that i expected him to say what i want to hear but EXSQUEEZE ME.... can you please be more err... generous? is that the word? WHAT EVER! yes he did say that work and personal life is different... at work... he is not abg but my leader... yes i know! and i know that i have to respect you! this is the very first time that i ask to set myself free in order to save my studies!! how can u not understand that?? OMG! Astaghfirullah... however, i was very tired of this kind of fights as he will never understand... so i just agree to what he said and will just pray that may my results will turn out good... Amiin... you know,dear... this is why i never want to talk to you about my frustrations... because you will get angry and will disagree with me... you ask me to be more mature in thinking right? but i never mention that you too need to be more mature in what you do... because... i need someone who can protect me from sadness... who will listen to me instead of telling me what to do... but somehow i think this is kind of impossible and i'm demanding too much from you so i'm sorry... actually... i wrote this post because i am very sure that he will not read this.. haha... he never read my blog... but he always pay attention to someone else's lives... maybe he think that he has enough knowledge about moi... *tepuk dahi* pls,abg... don't make me think twice... because you know... i really HATE you. and the reality is you know what is in my heart too so i'm begging don't make me angry and finally do something which is out of my control. ENOUGH IS ENOUGH. Labels: you are a really MEANIE.. |