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just being myself..
first of all.. i just felt like blogging but i really don't know what i'm going to talk about.. looking at people around me makes me realize that they are going through hard times themselves... it's just either they keep it to themselves or share it with others.. but most people will definitely choose to share with others their grieves so that they will feel better.. that's a gd thing for sure as what i heard is most people die because they keep everything to themselves and it's unbearable.. yeah it's right.. not gd for our heart.. but you know.. somethings are meant to be kept and hidden for it's best for all than to speak up..
too busy entertaining my own thoughts and feelings, i forgot to post something about kak Syida..
Congratulations to kak Syida.. may you have the blessings of Allah with you and your husband.. ameen.. and may you lead a gd and happy life with your love.. ^_^
well.. seeing her getting married makes me wonder when i'll be getting married..hihi.. it's hard to find a gd guy nowadays,isn't it true friends? ^_^ well.. we had fun.. we had to wait for the groom to arrive and we had to wait until nearly an hour or more.. i'm not sure.. me,ju and feesa had great time drinking and eating the nata de coco that we were given.. feesa's cup broke she had a hard time eating it.. hihi.. pity her.. and when i open mine... better if i keep it.. i was the clumsiest eater of nata de coco that day.. and thank gdness,nothing happen to ju's.. haha.. it's a great day..
ok fine..hmm.. you see.. i'm having a really hard time with myself.. friends and family.. i just want to keep both in happiness.. i think... obviously, i dislike going out too often and i just go out when i must.. i prefer living inside my house then going out.. and if i'm out, i like to be alone as i will do many hurtful things whether to myself or to others.. i'm very very weak these days but no one knows.. i'm really weak that i just don't have time to even ask or be by others' sides when they need me most.. so i'm sorry to whoever that asked me out and i said no.. i'm sorry to whoever needs me but i'm not there.. see.. i always do wrong things and say unreasonable thoughts of mine without me,myself, realizing it... so i'm really sorry if i've hurt anyone..
i'm sorry if i don't share anything with anyone as i'm used to keep it within me.. i know that some will say it's not a good thing and all but it's me.. i just think it's better this way.. you know.. i'm all right.. just leave me alone for a while and i'll be fine... that's just the way i am.. so please accept this side of me ok.. i just don't want to talk about things that will make me hurt even more.. i need to protect myself.. i'm sorry..
if i think,speaking up will make me better, then rest assured i'll say it out.. so just don't worry ok.. i'm fine..
just a piece of advice.. don't ever sigh or ask..
-why is it that no one understands us when we're trying very hard to understand them?
-why is it that no one pleases us when we're trying very hard to please them?
-why is it that no one knows what we're feeling when we're trying very hard to know what they feel?
-why is it that it's always us pleasing people here and there when they don't even appreciate it?
-why is it always us that do this and do that..
and please.. stop saying..
-i'm the one who always understand..
-i'm the one who always please..
-i'm the one who is trying..
-it's i'm the one and only me..
do you know and do you realize that everyone is trying just the same as you? do you know that they are doing that just for you like you are doing it for them? you don't look around.. you don't see.. do you know that some people are doing what you're doing but they don't ask this and that.. it's because they feel and think it's their responsibility as a human being.. as a servant of Allah..
open your eyes wider and you will see.. you will realize.. that everyone is doing just the same.. it's not only you doing this and that... so never sigh and never ask like that.. maybe it's only some people and not everyone.. is it not appreciative enough? you ought to be thankful always.. because Allah is very kind to us.. Allah always give us what we need but we are not satisfied at all and always complaining.. that's human.. it's natural.. so don't sigh ok.. it is as if you are not thankful with what you have..
during this holiday.. i've been at home.. nothing much for me to learn but it's satisfying enough that i realize many things that i didn't.. so i'm sharing with all of you here.. it's not what others had done.. it's myself that has opened this very eyes with new contact lense.. huhu..
so take what's good and what's bad for you.. saying many things sure is not good.. Astaghfirullah.. may Allah forgives me if i'm spouting nonsense here... so that's that..
^_^
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The Dreaming Star
Hi there! You've entered the dreaming land of a twinkling star~ (^_^)
I'm nothing but an ordinary girl with sweet and painful memories~
It's hard to make me talk as I'm not quite friendly~
If you want to know more, read my posts, you'll know me~
Struggling to live in this not-forever world~
Islam is my religion!
I swear that there is no other God except for ALLAH and MUHAMMAD is the messenger of ALLAH! (^_^)
Wishes, Dreams, Du'a
-To be a solehah daughter~
-To be a solehah wife~
-To be a solehah mother~
-To be a solehah 'abdullah~
-To be a able to teach and make my children understand Islam and this world~
THOSE ARE MY WISHES.. CAN YOU HELP ME FULFILL IT? (^_^)
just being myself..
first of all.. i just felt like blogging but i really don't know what i'm going to talk about.. looking at people around me makes me realize that they are going through hard times themselves... it's just either they keep it to themselves or share it with others.. but most people will definitely choose to share with others their grieves so that they will feel better.. that's a gd thing for sure as what i heard is most people die because they keep everything to themselves and it's unbearable.. yeah it's right.. not gd for our heart.. but you know.. somethings are meant to be kept and hidden for it's best for all than to speak up..
too busy entertaining my own thoughts and feelings, i forgot to post something about kak Syida..
Congratulations to kak Syida.. may you have the blessings of Allah with you and your husband.. ameen.. and may you lead a gd and happy life with your love.. ^_^
well.. seeing her getting married makes me wonder when i'll be getting married..hihi.. it's hard to find a gd guy nowadays,isn't it true friends? ^_^ well.. we had fun.. we had to wait for the groom to arrive and we had to wait until nearly an hour or more.. i'm not sure.. me,ju and feesa had great time drinking and eating the nata de coco that we were given.. feesa's cup broke she had a hard time eating it.. hihi.. pity her.. and when i open mine... better if i keep it.. i was the clumsiest eater of nata de coco that day.. and thank gdness,nothing happen to ju's.. haha.. it's a great day..
ok fine..hmm.. you see.. i'm having a really hard time with myself.. friends and family.. i just want to keep both in happiness.. i think... obviously, i dislike going out too often and i just go out when i must.. i prefer living inside my house then going out.. and if i'm out, i like to be alone as i will do many hurtful things whether to myself or to others.. i'm very very weak these days but no one knows.. i'm really weak that i just don't have time to even ask or be by others' sides when they need me most.. so i'm sorry to whoever that asked me out and i said no.. i'm sorry to whoever needs me but i'm not there.. see.. i always do wrong things and say unreasonable thoughts of mine without me,myself, realizing it... so i'm really sorry if i've hurt anyone..
i'm sorry if i don't share anything with anyone as i'm used to keep it within me.. i know that some will say it's not a good thing and all but it's me.. i just think it's better this way.. you know.. i'm all right.. just leave me alone for a while and i'll be fine... that's just the way i am.. so please accept this side of me ok.. i just don't want to talk about things that will make me hurt even more.. i need to protect myself.. i'm sorry..
if i think,speaking up will make me better, then rest assured i'll say it out.. so just don't worry ok.. i'm fine..
just a piece of advice.. don't ever sigh or ask..
-why is it that no one understands us when we're trying very hard to understand them?
-why is it that no one pleases us when we're trying very hard to please them?
-why is it that no one knows what we're feeling when we're trying very hard to know what they feel?
-why is it that it's always us pleasing people here and there when they don't even appreciate it?
-why is it always us that do this and do that..
and please.. stop saying..
-i'm the one who always understand..
-i'm the one who always please..
-i'm the one who is trying..
-it's i'm the one and only me..
do you know and do you realize that everyone is trying just the same as you? do you know that they are doing that just for you like you are doing it for them? you don't look around.. you don't see.. do you know that some people are doing what you're doing but they don't ask this and that.. it's because they feel and think it's their responsibility as a human being.. as a servant of Allah..
open your eyes wider and you will see.. you will realize.. that everyone is doing just the same.. it's not only you doing this and that... so never sigh and never ask like that.. maybe it's only some people and not everyone.. is it not appreciative enough? you ought to be thankful always.. because Allah is very kind to us.. Allah always give us what we need but we are not satisfied at all and always complaining.. that's human.. it's natural.. so don't sigh ok.. it is as if you are not thankful with what you have..
during this holiday.. i've been at home.. nothing much for me to learn but it's satisfying enough that i realize many things that i didn't.. so i'm sharing with all of you here.. it's not what others had done.. it's myself that has opened this very eyes with new contact lense.. huhu..
so take what's good and what's bad for you.. saying many things sure is not good.. Astaghfirullah.. may Allah forgives me if i'm spouting nonsense here... so that's that..
^_^
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