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hard time eh...
ok... how do i start... tomorrow we're going to register ourselves at KUIS.... akhrnye... Alhamdulillah.. after menempuhi dugaan2 yg melanda... (mcm btl jek...) kte brjy jgk jejakkn kaki di RMH LAME KTE!!!!!!!! YAY FOR US!!!!! WOOHOO!!!! huhu...merepek kn... tp tu lh yg Syirul rase... lega sgt3... amat lega yg tramat... thnks to the MT of ta'arruf yg settlekn benda ni sdkt sebyk... thnk u so much... everything is still the same in that house of ours... just have this distant feeling but i don't know why and what causes me to feel like this...have i told you? i CRIED FOR THE FIRST TIME when mom and dad sent me here... i just feel like i want to go back to Spore and i don't want to return here ever again... FOR THE FIRST TIME, Syirulhuda is actually feeling like that! how amazing... hihi...it's just that everything is different yet they all look the same... it's like it's not my place and i'm not supposed to be here... it's a very weird feeling for me... i actually don't feel happy at all coming back to KUIS... i've never felt like this before... it's annoying as i have always been happy evry time i'm back here... i can still study and look upon my future with head held high... but this semester is very unnatural... u understand? i hate this... i hate feelings that make me uneasy with myself...i always look at the mirror before i go out... bile tgk crmin tu,senyum lh kn... it's FAKE... bkn senyum je fake... sume kt sini fake... sume dlm dunia ni fake... sumenye penipuan... there's no hapiness at all... every way i turned to,and where ever i looked at,it's all 'not-my-place'... it's all dark and false and fake and no smiles... just people crying bitterly,finding fault with fate... just some people who know not the meaning of happiness... am i starting to be one of them? i think so... Jgn Tipu Diri Sendiri... Seolah2 Menipu ILLAHI... Seakan2 Menidakkan Takdir Yang Dah Tertulis Untuk Insani... tp bkn ke Syirul tgh mcm tu? knp? it's my little secret if i find out...Takdir Yang Baik Memang Sudah Tertulis Sebelum Kita Melakukan Kebaikan Itu...Tetapi Takdir Yang Tidak Baik,Tidak Akan Tertulis Selagi Kita Belum Melakukan Kejahatan Itu... Ini Kerana,ALLAH Sangat Sayang Kepada Kita... Di Mana Inilah Waktunya Untuk Kita Membezakan Haiwan Dan Manusia... Dan Yang Membezakan Antara Dua Makhluk Ini Ialah AKAL FIKIRAN...kasar sangat ke bahasa2 ni? tapi rasanya... tu lah kenyataan... betul tak?Sorry klau Syirul trgunakan bahasa yang kasar atau buat sape2 tak selesa dgn apa yg Syirul dh tulis ni... maaf sgt3... akhr kate,Ta'arruf mmg memenatkan... -_--Syirulhuda-
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The Dreaming Star
Hi there! You've entered the dreaming land of a twinkling star~ (^_^)
I'm nothing but an ordinary girl with sweet and painful memories~
It's hard to make me talk as I'm not quite friendly~
If you want to know more, read my posts, you'll know me~
Struggling to live in this not-forever world~
Islam is my religion!
I swear that there is no other God except for ALLAH and MUHAMMAD is the messenger of ALLAH! (^_^)
Wishes, Dreams, Du'a
-To be a solehah daughter~
-To be a solehah wife~
-To be a solehah mother~
-To be a solehah 'abdullah~
-To be a able to teach and make my children understand Islam and this world~
THOSE ARE MY WISHES.. CAN YOU HELP ME FULFILL IT? (^_^)
hard time eh...
ok... how do i start... tomorrow we're going to register ourselves at KUIS.... akhrnye... Alhamdulillah.. after menempuhi dugaan2 yg melanda... (mcm btl jek...) kte brjy jgk jejakkn kaki di RMH LAME KTE!!!!!!!! YAY FOR US!!!!! WOOHOO!!!! huhu...merepek kn... tp tu lh yg Syirul rase... lega sgt3... amat lega yg tramat... thnks to the MT of ta'arruf yg settlekn benda ni sdkt sebyk... thnk u so much... everything is still the same in that house of ours... just have this distant feeling but i don't know why and what causes me to feel like this...have i told you? i CRIED FOR THE FIRST TIME when mom and dad sent me here... i just feel like i want to go back to Spore and i don't want to return here ever again... FOR THE FIRST TIME, Syirulhuda is actually feeling like that! how amazing... hihi...it's just that everything is different yet they all look the same... it's like it's not my place and i'm not supposed to be here... it's a very weird feeling for me... i actually don't feel happy at all coming back to KUIS... i've never felt like this before... it's annoying as i have always been happy evry time i'm back here... i can still study and look upon my future with head held high... but this semester is very unnatural... u understand? i hate this... i hate feelings that make me uneasy with myself...i always look at the mirror before i go out... bile tgk crmin tu,senyum lh kn... it's FAKE... bkn senyum je fake... sume kt sini fake... sume dlm dunia ni fake... sumenye penipuan... there's no hapiness at all... every way i turned to,and where ever i looked at,it's all 'not-my-place'... it's all dark and false and fake and no smiles... just people crying bitterly,finding fault with fate... just some people who know not the meaning of happiness... am i starting to be one of them? i think so... Jgn Tipu Diri Sendiri... Seolah2 Menipu ILLAHI... Seakan2 Menidakkan Takdir Yang Dah Tertulis Untuk Insani... tp bkn ke Syirul tgh mcm tu? knp? it's my little secret if i find out...Takdir Yang Baik Memang Sudah Tertulis Sebelum Kita Melakukan Kebaikan Itu...Tetapi Takdir Yang Tidak Baik,Tidak Akan Tertulis Selagi Kita Belum Melakukan Kejahatan Itu... Ini Kerana,ALLAH Sangat Sayang Kepada Kita... Di Mana Inilah Waktunya Untuk Kita Membezakan Haiwan Dan Manusia... Dan Yang Membezakan Antara Dua Makhluk Ini Ialah AKAL FIKIRAN...kasar sangat ke bahasa2 ni? tapi rasanya... tu lah kenyataan... betul tak?Sorry klau Syirul trgunakan bahasa yang kasar atau buat sape2 tak selesa dgn apa yg Syirul dh tulis ni... maaf sgt3... akhr kate,Ta'arruf mmg memenatkan... -_--Syirulhuda-
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