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what is LIFE?
KEHIDUPAN...mcm yg Syirul slalu kena buat... letak telapak tangan kat dada, tutup mata, senyap, rasa denyutan jantung kte dan fkr...APA TU KEHIDUPAN? hidup Syirul msh blm cukup utk Syirul jwb soalan tu... trlbh lg sbgi remaja... Syirul tk tau jwpn kpd soalan yg Syirul sndiri tny diri sndiri dan org lain... sbb Syirul msh cari lg siapa Syirulhuda yg sbnr... btl tk?i read my diary... everything was so lovely... my new life, my new chapter of novel, it's so beautiful that i nearly cried...but days went by,and came that stories of miseries... sedih sgt bile kte bace kehidupan kte yg lalu, penuh dgn senyuman,kgmbiraan, suddenly... OUT OF SUDDEN... BOOM! change... change until now... prnh tk rase... rindu pd kehidupan lama kte? you know... when i was able to smile or laugh and i meant it when i did it... but now... stiap kali senyum atau ktw... FAKE. that's the only word that can describe my feelings,my situation. -_-so what's going to happen? no real smile, no meaning laughter... just FAKE ONES... how despicable... how pathetic...you must be bored... reading these kind of stuff... about miseries and all... tringin sgt nk Syirul yg dulu.. serious... Syirul dh pnt sgt... i must do something about it now... and i mean... MUST.smlm dan beberapa ari sblm ni... Syirul kene lg... yes yes i know... i can't cry now... even now,when i'm typing,i'm shivering... tp tk tau knp... Syirulhuda teruk sgt skrg ni... teruk sgt3... pls can i live my life properly...ya Allah... tlglh... andai ade seseorg yg KAU utuskn utk membantuku,maka biarlah dia muncul skrg... waktu ini... saat ini dan aku sedar akn kehadirannya... ya Allah... hny KAU yg blh mengubah semuanya... hny KAU ya Rabb... maka bantulh aku... pls... someone... help... ya Allah... aku kehilangn satu persatu krn ini shj... aku kehilangn cukup byk ya Allah... mungkin krn aku trlalu byk mlakukn dosa... ampunkn aku... aku mrayu... ampunkn aku...kembalikn aku yg dulu ya Allah.. aku yg mampu trsenyum dan ktw riang... yg menyayangi semua yg aku ada... yg mnghargai sgala2nya... aku yg dulu... aku mohon ya Rahim...kembalikan aku...
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The Dreaming Star
Hi there! You've entered the dreaming land of a twinkling star~ (^_^)
I'm nothing but an ordinary girl with sweet and painful memories~
It's hard to make me talk as I'm not quite friendly~
If you want to know more, read my posts, you'll know me~
Struggling to live in this not-forever world~
Islam is my religion!
I swear that there is no other God except for ALLAH and MUHAMMAD is the messenger of ALLAH! (^_^)
Wishes, Dreams, Du'a
-To be a solehah daughter~
-To be a solehah wife~
-To be a solehah mother~
-To be a solehah 'abdullah~
-To be a able to teach and make my children understand Islam and this world~
THOSE ARE MY WISHES.. CAN YOU HELP ME FULFILL IT? (^_^)
what is LIFE?
KEHIDUPAN...mcm yg Syirul slalu kena buat... letak telapak tangan kat dada, tutup mata, senyap, rasa denyutan jantung kte dan fkr...APA TU KEHIDUPAN? hidup Syirul msh blm cukup utk Syirul jwb soalan tu... trlbh lg sbgi remaja... Syirul tk tau jwpn kpd soalan yg Syirul sndiri tny diri sndiri dan org lain... sbb Syirul msh cari lg siapa Syirulhuda yg sbnr... btl tk?i read my diary... everything was so lovely... my new life, my new chapter of novel, it's so beautiful that i nearly cried...but days went by,and came that stories of miseries... sedih sgt bile kte bace kehidupan kte yg lalu, penuh dgn senyuman,kgmbiraan, suddenly... OUT OF SUDDEN... BOOM! change... change until now... prnh tk rase... rindu pd kehidupan lama kte? you know... when i was able to smile or laugh and i meant it when i did it... but now... stiap kali senyum atau ktw... FAKE. that's the only word that can describe my feelings,my situation. -_-so what's going to happen? no real smile, no meaning laughter... just FAKE ONES... how despicable... how pathetic...you must be bored... reading these kind of stuff... about miseries and all... tringin sgt nk Syirul yg dulu.. serious... Syirul dh pnt sgt... i must do something about it now... and i mean... MUST.smlm dan beberapa ari sblm ni... Syirul kene lg... yes yes i know... i can't cry now... even now,when i'm typing,i'm shivering... tp tk tau knp... Syirulhuda teruk sgt skrg ni... teruk sgt3... pls can i live my life properly...ya Allah... tlglh... andai ade seseorg yg KAU utuskn utk membantuku,maka biarlah dia muncul skrg... waktu ini... saat ini dan aku sedar akn kehadirannya... ya Allah... hny KAU yg blh mengubah semuanya... hny KAU ya Rabb... maka bantulh aku... pls... someone... help... ya Allah... aku kehilangn satu persatu krn ini shj... aku kehilangn cukup byk ya Allah... mungkin krn aku trlalu byk mlakukn dosa... ampunkn aku... aku mrayu... ampunkn aku...kembalikn aku yg dulu ya Allah.. aku yg mampu trsenyum dan ktw riang... yg menyayangi semua yg aku ada... yg mnghargai sgala2nya... aku yg dulu... aku mohon ya Rahim...kembalikan aku...
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