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back to hometown~~
Wednesday 5 August 2009 | 4:09 am | 0 star
shouldn't i be smiling from ear to ear when i heard that we'll be going home? shouldn't i be laughing when i know that we're taking a sudden break for a week? but why i'm feeling weird and sad deep within me? it's so unnatural that i can't hold on anymore...so many things have happened and i don't want to lose them all... maybe it's too sudden and i'm not ready for this... it's too sudden for me that i can't hold back my tears... it's really weird... why am i smiling and crying at a time? this shouldn't be happening... this can't happen... there was this one time when things that suddenly happen occured and as a result, i have to let everything go... although it's not my fault wholely... and it's affecting me until now... and i'm scared.. really scared that this something bad will happen again and affect me deeply that i will breakdown for a really long time.. i don't want that to happen cause it hurts so much... and it's still hurting... this someone said to me, that it'll be hard... it'll be really hard... so i told this person that i want to be together... it's ok if it hurts too much... it's ok... i'll pray... i'll pray that one day the sun will shine upon us and we'll be able to smile like that day... i want to smile again... all i want is to be together... with mom, dad, one-chan, imoto-chan, watashi no tomodachi... and this person... pls.. i'll pray that we'll be able to cross all these hurdles... i'll pray... i'll go with you and if you have to go,pls come back... pls come back and don't forget that i'm waiting... i don't want that matter to occur two times... i'm really scared... pls Allah... lend me YOUR strength... i need it.. i really need it... i must smile... i must smile... i must... Labels: don't ever forget that i'm here... |