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dream or nightmare?~
Saturday 10 October 2009 | 7:16 pm | 0 star
2 more days to go... but i don't know what will happen when the time comes... are we going to stay or are you going to decide something like what you did before? i'm so scared that you'll be gone... for me,the distance is enough for me... i dreamt you again... but for me,it's a nightmare... maybe it's because i'm really scared that i read your messages and cried until i slept... will this come true? i don't know... but this is the 2nd time that i dreamt like this... the 1st one, you asked me to throw something into the sea as a symbol that we've parted ways... and at that point of time, in my dream, i felt as if i was killed and i wanted to jump into the sea too... but i didn't. and we were together without anyone's blessings... yesterday, you did it again in my dream.. you came out and said that you had to follow instructions... and like always, i just said yes and went away... after that, i cried hard... without you noticing it... it hurts that in reality, i realise that losing you is like losing part of me... but i have to accept it if that's true right... i don't know if i'll accept anyone in my life again because it's going to be hard for me... really really hard... but i'll accept it... however, Nauzubillah...i don't want it to happen... i just want us to be together... Ameen... this is just a piece of my thought and feeling.... not all can understand and maybe some will shake their heads when reading this... but i don't mind... i don't care what people think and feel... because not even one of them knows the truth... so i'll just let it be... it's just you,me and ALLAH... and that's more than enough for me... Ya ALLAH... hny Kau yg tau, apa yg brada dlm hati ini... hny Kau yg mampu utk melakukn sgala sesuatu, maka aku mohon barakah dah rahmat drmu,utk merestui kami dan menyatukn kami dlm limpah kurniaMu... Ameen... Labels: u promised to take me to watch the snow fall together... |