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a memory~
Thursday 8 October 2009 | 5:27 pm | 0 star
looking at her situation somehow reminds me of mine...just last week, i was sitting in the MRT when there was a family of 3, a mother and 2 children i assume... but the little boy somehow didn't seem like hers... who do i say that? i heard they were talking about the little boy talking about something like not wanting to be the little girl's husband... the 2 children were still in primary school i guess.. the boy said that he didn't want to marry that girl,and the woman between them somehow seemed angry with him since they went into the train... she didn't even take a glance at the boy and she asked the girl whether she wants to marry him and the little girl said... "since he doesn't want to marry me,i don't want to marry him..." this conversation really attracted me... but not just what they were talking about... but the action of the woman and the boy... that boy reminded me of myself... when i'm scolded and my thought is not accepted by some people,i'll feel really lonely especially when they turned their back off me as if i'm not there... it's a feeling of embarrassment and anguish plus frustrated... the boy kept talking to himself and the woman ignored him... until they alighted at Simei... but the woman and the girl alighted first without the boy noticing... only when the boy realised that the doors were opened and they were not there that he ran out of train... poor boy... and a couple replaced them... they looked like as if they were arguing... they were in silence until the lady hugged the guy's hand... as if she wanted to be consolled or was consoling the guy by action... and they reminded me of myself again... (not like i hugged someone's hand... it's the feeling and the aura... huhu) i can't forget both scenes...which remind me more of myself... i thought it's only me that have ever been into that kind of situation... i hope there will be no one like me...ever. seeing her being depressed and stressed about her problem,makes me cry... because she reminds me of myself again... another situation which is the same as mine... suddenly today, everything reminds me of KUIS... the subject today... the situation today...everything... and it makes me miss KUIS badly... how i wish i could be strong enough to make sure this won't happen... if only i can turn back time... but i can't... this is my destiny now... i won't forget the day i was given my matric no... that sweet memory and feeling of being happy... that one day when it's so light... that one fine day which can't be erased from my heart,my mind, which has been intertwined with my soul... and i'm waiting for that one fine day to come again... that one fine day... but it's my destiny.. i have to accept it... HE knows better than i do... i have to accept my destiny that has been written for me... Ya ALLAH... jika ini jalan yg KAU pilih utkku,maka permudahkanlah segala urusanku... Ameen... Labels: don't leave me ever again... |