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Monday 12 April 2010 | 2:13 pm | 0 star
everything is changing... i can sense it & i can feel it... i can even see it... how? i don't know because the environment is not the same and even the wind is changing its direction...i received a msg from my dear old friend, Nur Nadiah bte mohd Hasim... haha... surprisingly, i can still remember her full name.. ok.. she is going to UIA to further her studies... i forgot to ask what is the course she's taking... oh my... hee.. least did i expect that i will be one of her friends to receive that piece of meaningful message... it brought tears to my eyes... seriously... she reminded me of how close we used to be when we were in school... we always "celebrated" our birthday together as her birthday is a day before mine... i just miss the times we were in school and now i do realise that i really loved going to school at that time.. just the same as i love to go to classes in my college now.. but we can't return to that time can we? it is already in the past.. and the future holds something that no one knows what it is.. nur nadiah... good luck.. do u still remember how people start calling u Noned? it was in secondary 1... ^_^ secondary 1... haha... so long ago... hmm... -i miss spacing out of the window when the teachers are teaching in front... -i miss dozing off when i couldn't understand the subject which was being taught... -i miss to sit quietly at my place doing my own things during recess time... -i miss looking at the primary students playing at the parking which we considered as our field... -i miss visiting my friends in other class... -i miss praying together at the hall... -i miss copying homework before the class started... -i miss everyone and everything in school... now, everything is not the same as before... the experience is very priceless... the hurt is worse... the happiness is decreasing... because we can never laugh like those days.. and the reason we laugh is not the same... the tears have become more eager to meet the world than the smile which is now has hide behind the mask.. bitter is more than sweet... the path is more challenging... hmm... and i really hope i can stand still at the path i once can be happy without any worries... but time flies... i really am blessed... there are so many people who love me... and i really love them too.. i can see the world clearly now.. but i want to close my eyes and deny the things that are hurtful to me.. i want to believe that all the things that are painful are lies... but i just can't... but thank you, Allah... for sending him to me... for giving me the feel to love and be loved... it is a wonder... thank u,Allah... and please oh please... let me feel the happiness You once gave me... because i really need it... amiin... Labels: the season is changing once more... |