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how can i forget
Thursday 8 April 2010 | 4:31 pm | 0 star
everytime i think... i get a headache...everytime i feel... i get a heartache.. i'm already too tired to experience those hurtful things again... and i can't even imagine if i have to endure it once more... because... i've reached my limits.. i'm going through a phase which i start to give him messages which i felt in my nightmares... just like yesterday... i dreamt of that girl and i felt a disastrous heartache which ended me up sending him a message which i wanted to just type it and wished i could send it to her... and it hurts too much.. abg... syg sje post nie... tk tau abg bce ke tak... tk tau abg nk bce ke tak pn... tk tau jgk abg rajin nk bce atau tk... tp syg mntk maaf byk3... sgt3... syg btl2 tk sngje... cume da byk sgt bnde yg jd yg menyakitkn yg buat syg pnt sgt dan tknk dan mls nk tempuh lg... ade plk prkr yg buat abg ngn syg jauh nnt... dan syg tk tau syg kuat atau tk nk jalani waktu tu... tp pape pn, klau abg nk, trskn lah... sbb mcm yg syg slalu ckp... sumenye kt tngn abg... syg nk rncng... syg blh rncng skt je... sume mse dpn kte, mse dpn syg, kt tngn abg... syg duk diam tgk k... klau ade yg syg tknk, syg bilng abg... him: abg prgi kjp je k... nnt abg balik ambk syg... me: nnt tk dtg2... him: npe syg ckp mcm tu... tk prcy abg eh... me: prcy... tp ade byk kemungkinan yg tk mustahil... abg igt tk mse abg bru knl syg... abg ckp... "klau sye prgi lg, sye nk bwk awk ngn sye... msti best klau awk ikut skali... sye ade teman dlm flight..." ^_^ klau lah blh trjd kn abg... sumenye cume mntk air mate trun je skrg nie... hihihi... ape la syirul nie... hmm... sakinah is thinking of moving in with me... nk pindah bilik lain type C... this is a very good news to me... but looking at the other side, it's not gd at all.... cause she needs to sacrifice many things in order to move out of that house... it's like this... pindah dr situ, byk bnde kte akn hilang... -kte tkkn tau pape sebyk mne yg kte prnh tau.. -kte akn hilang that special bond yg ade dlm diri kte...yg left is only love which will make us want to be with them again.. -kte akn hilang "kerapatan" yg ade mse kte duk satu uma dlu.. dan sume yg hilang tu bkn skt... nmpk cume satu prkr yg kte hilang... tp dr saru prkr tu, ade byk sgt3 yg kte akn hilang... mkin lme mkin byk dan mkin byk dan mkin byk... dan kte tkkn suke dgn prubahan yg ade... as for me... ye ana byk kluar ngn abu... because that is the only time we have to be together other than in class... the situation is very very very different... and he is not just some guyfriend but he is my future... there is a lot of things for us to talk about... there is a need to spend time together because he is going to help me write my own future... insyaAllah... amiin... and i don't u to be alone at times when i need to be with him... if only there is other choice than this, i would certainly pick that choice if it doensn't hurt any sides... can u see what will happen if u move out? u won't like it because honestly, i hate it... but on top of that, i will always love u because u are my twin... forever... even if we are going to part one day, that is not going to change... ^_^ abg... trm ksh utk sume slame nie... klau ade jodoh, kte akn jmpe lg nnt kn... Labels: the image of snow falling in my head is bringing tears to my eyes.. |