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~sweet suffering~
Wednesday 14 April 2010 | 12:50 pm | 0 star
i just can't tell whether it was a nightmare or a dream... it was scary yet so sweet... it was terrible yet so nice... smlm mlm, dr mule Syirul tutup mate smpai Syirul bukak mate waktu subuh & tutup mate lg, cume die yg Syirul mimpi... tk tau la knp... dan mimpi tu bg effect smpai Syirul da bangun... maybe...there are too many things i'm thinking... haii... Syirul sbr sgt3 bile Syirul dpn "seseorg tu"... Syirul igt lg waktu tu sume ade dlm klas dan yg laki tnggl dlm klas cume Abu.. Syirul smpai tekap due2 tngn Syirul mntk sgt3 Abu tlg jgn kluar dr klas bile die kate die nk kluar & jmpe kwn2 laki yg lain...die sruh Syirul prgi join kwn2 prmpn yg lain tgh brbual.. tp Syirul mntk sgt3 waktu tu bg Syirul ikut die prgi mne yg die nk prgi... sbb Syirul tk blh lg brdpn dgn "seseorg tu"... Syirul tk kuat... sbb Syirul tkkn ckp ngn "seseorg tu" mcm Syirul slalu buat.. tk blh lg ktw btl2 pn sbb sakit sgt3 ngn prbuatan "seseorg tu"... Syirul igt lg waktu tu.. for the first time, abu nmpk mcm fhm sgt knp syirul buat mcm tu... die tk mrh tp die ikutkn ape yg syirul mksudkn... die bwk syirul kluar.. die kate syirul kne msuk jgk nnt... die kate die ade... jgn rsau... dan sbb tu, syirul msuk jgk sbb syirul jd tknk tngguh2 utk mnghadap "seseorg tu"... trm ksh,abg... syirul tk tau "seseorg tu" sdr atau tk ape yg die tgh buat... syirul tk tau "seseorg tu" sngaje atau tk.. klau tk sngaje,syirul mntk maaf sbb buat "seseorg tu" mcm nie... tp ape yg "seseorg tu" tgh buat nie, mmg menyakitkn sgt3... rse mcm kne tikam blkng... smpai hati... syirul da dgr perncngn die.. pd syirul, die mmg tkkn bilng syirul rncngn die klau die tk fkr masak2... sbb die bkn jenis yg suke trburu2... syirul suke sgt dgn perncngn die... cume waktu je yg blm tibe utk sumenye trjd... dan bile waktu msh lg tk izinkn, sumenye menakutkn utk syirul... dan even klau waktu dah smpai, syirul msh gemuruh... syirul tkt trlalu awl utk die sdgkn mmg da sesuai utk syirul... syirul tkt mcm2 mslh nnt timbul akn dtg... we have yet to discuss this properly... hmm... but staying far away from each other is not an option & is not one of our plan... syirul igt... syirul tkkn nangis lg... tp mcm2 prasaan buat syirul nangis lg & lg & lg... i just can wait & see... may Allah give us oppurtunity & give us what we plan as we really need it... i'm really tired now... and i don't want to be tired of these things in the future... thank u for all u have given me,abg... thank u... Labels: i'm still dreaming that u grant me my wish... |