Hi there! You've entered the dreaming land of a twinkling star~ (^_^)
I'm nothing but an ordinary girl with sweet and painful memories~
It's hard to make me talk as I'm not quite friendly~
If you want to know more, read my posts, you'll know me~
Struggling to live in this not-forever world~
Islam is my religion!
I swear that there is no other God except for ALLAH and MUHAMMAD is the messenger of ALLAH! (^_^)

Wishes, Dreams, Du'a

-To be a solehah daughter~
-To be a solehah wife~
-To be a solehah mother~
-To be a solehah 'abdullah~
-To be a able to teach and make my children understand Islam and this world~

THOSE ARE MY WISHES.. CAN YOU HELP ME FULFILL IT? (^_^)

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I received a shocking news from bestie 2 nights before.. A very shocking news that make me scared because I've dreamt about this person twice.. and suddenly his name appears.. trying to find the reason why I went away..

Ilaika.. you already have that special person and I pray for your happiness. I'm truly happy right now with my family, my bestfriend, my friends, and my beloved him by my side.. They really care for me and accept me for who I am despite my mistakes, my weaknesses and my flaws.. I think it's time for you to let go.. You're not supposed to remember anything about me and so do I.. I know it's hard to forget but please try.. I don't want anyone to get hurt because since I left, I've been through the pain that changed my whole life and also myself..

Ilaika.. Please don't make the mistake twice.. It's hard to change but if you're really persistant to find the blessings of Allah, surely, He will help you.. believe me. and I also am trying really hard to change. Allah has given me a beautiful person to guide me and change together with me.. Motivates me, and cares for me so much.. So please, don't come near me or try to find reasons or ask for me.. More than one person will get hurt..

Ilaika.. I don't think I'm important to you anymore because I'm just a part of your past.. and there are more important things to you than myself, and I put myself in a place where you don't even need me anymore. So yes, I'm not an important person anymore. So please care for that person's feelings and stop mentioning my name or my bestfriend's name.. It's hurting their hearts.

I hope you'll never appear in front of me anymore, never let me hear your voice and never let me know about your life. Because it's over and it's been long since we have to move on.. I've moved on. and I know you also do.

P/S for my beloved husband, no matter where you are: Pls take care of me, as I will try my best to take care of you. and pls shower me with endless love until akhirat with the blessings of Allah, I'll shower you with the same love too.. (^__^)

-Syirulhuda-
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