Hi there! You've entered the dreaming land of a twinkling star~ (^_^)
I'm nothing but an ordinary girl with sweet and painful memories~
It's hard to make me talk as I'm not quite friendly~
If you want to know more, read my posts, you'll know me~
Struggling to live in this not-forever world~
Islam is my religion!
I swear that there is no other God except for ALLAH and MUHAMMAD is the messenger of ALLAH! (^_^)

Wishes, Dreams, Du'a

-To be a solehah daughter~
-To be a solehah wife~
-To be a solehah mother~
-To be a solehah 'abdullah~
-To be a able to teach and make my children understand Islam and this world~

THOSE ARE MY WISHES.. CAN YOU HELP ME FULFILL IT? (^_^)

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went back to Msia to visit Nadia ak KKB and wanted to go back to Kulai but left with no time so mom,dad and me cancelled our plan to go back to Kulai... dad said to bring me there tomorrow as dad's shop will closed half day as it's NATIONAL DAY tomorrow... but i'll be leaving for Kulai tomorrow... huhu... ^_^

some shocking news when i heard Muneer fainted and was sent to hospital as she is having a high fever... poor her... told him that and he said..."Cian Muneer... die byk lyn kerenah kte kn..."hihi... and so do you realize that only now? she's already like my sister to me... never fail to make me smile and laugh when i feel down... hope u'll get well soon,muneer... may Allah always be with you,aite... u're a gd girl... Allah loves you... ^_^

fever comes and go... and i feel lousier than lousy... >_<, flu and coughing non-stop that i feel like my throt will drop... it hurts so much... i'm having difficulty of breathing also... my my... this is very dangerous isn't it? that's why i refuse to go to clinic or hospital... i'm very scared that i'll be suspected of 'that' u know... na'uzubillah... really want to meet this someone... insyaAllah ade jodoh,rezki,bsk Syirul jumpe jgk... Ameen...

going back to KUIS next Monday but i'm still sick... oh no... this won't do... poor mom and dad are getting sick too... Gomenasai... >_<, oh Allah... pls protect them who i love... Ameen...

k then... that's that... i'll update more soon aite... dada...may Allah be with all of u always... Ameen...

Labels: i hope it's sincere from the bottom of ur heart...

sakit tak hati bile org yg kte syg tu diminati rmai gile3 hbs die pun melyn then bdk tu plk mntk sesuatu yg pd Syirul mmg lh tak patut... ikutkn hati... nak aje ckp *tuuut *tuuut... hihihi... tp Syirul bkn yg jenis mcm tu ok... syirul tahan je... tahan tahan tahan... smpai kwn Syirul kate...

"Syirul ni kuat tau... kuat tahan.."

hihi... thknx for that,Su... mmg btl pun Syirul kuat tahan.. lbh baik kte tahan dan cube utk prcykn die dr buat die ragu2 ngn kte... sakit sgt3... mcm nk rebah je rase....
ok.. i don't know whether it's a gd news or not... but i want it to be a gd one... congrats one-chan... u're really moving on... and i know that u know what's waiting for u in front there... just be strong... i really hope that this one will last forever for you... pls be strong ok...

like moi? one and only... from then until now and i hope until eternity although it will be really hard... pls pls pls... ameen.. -_-

*cough cough oopss... nothing to worry about... hope we'll all get well soon... ameen.. sakit btl ank tekak syirul... kesian die... sbr ye... nnt baik lah tak lame lg k...
syirul mntk mak nak balik kulai jumaat ni... tp tibe2 bpk rncng balik kulai ptg ni... maybe ade kenduri kot kat sane... ari kan nisfu syaaban... ape syirul nak ckp eh nnt... hmm...?_? pape pun,syirul nak visit seseorg kat sane.. tu the main oint... pas tu nak visit kak Ayu pas tu nak visit nadia plk... kesian nadia pun tgh sakit... sbr yea... pas tu nak balik spore balik pas tu balik ngn yg len ari isnin nnt... NATIONAL DAY IN SPORE~~!!! wuhhu...

and u mister... what u msged me just now better be true or u'll get it from me! and don't talk or say what u said to me to anyone else or u'll never ever see me talking to u ever again! hmmph1 >_<, it hurts if u do u know... =p

k then... need to prepare something something.... ptg ni nak brtolak dah... dada...
may Allah bless all of you.. ameen..

*ya Allah... tetapkan lah hatinya... begitu juga hatiku... ya Rabb... kuatkan lah hati kami utk menepuh sgala2nya... jgn lh trlps biarpun sesekali kehilangn... ya Robbul 'Izzah... aku brmohon... luruskn lh prjlnn kami ini... Ameen ya Rabbal 'Alameen...

Labels: will u pls give me some confidence...

how should i put this in words... i have no idea how to... it hurts too much that i just don't know what to feel anymore... i'm really very troubled over a matter.... pls stop now... u can stop now... pls don't do this... pls i beg... pls no...

it really is nice to watch the one you love crying, pondering and hurting because of you isn't it? it's enjoying right...then so be it...

Labels: pls stop this now...

shouldn't i be smiling from ear to ear when i heard that we'll be going home? shouldn't i be laughing when i know that we're taking a sudden break for a week? but why i'm feeling weird and sad deep within me? it's so unnatural that i can't hold on anymore...

so many things have happened and i don't want to lose them all... maybe it's too sudden and i'm not ready for this... it's too sudden for me that i can't hold back my tears... it's really weird... why am i smiling and crying at a time? this shouldn't be happening... this can't happen...

there was this one time when things that suddenly happen occured and as a result, i have to let everything go... although it's not my fault wholely... and it's affecting me until now... and i'm scared.. really scared that this something bad will happen again and affect me deeply that i will breakdown for a really long time.. i don't want that to happen cause it hurts so much... and it's still hurting...

this someone said to me, that it'll be hard... it'll be really hard... so i told this person that i want to be together... it's ok if it hurts too much... it's ok... i'll pray... i'll pray that one day the sun will shine upon us and we'll be able to smile like that day... i want to smile again... all i want is to be together... with mom, dad, one-chan, imoto-chan, watashi no tomodachi... and this person...

pls.. i'll pray that we'll be able to cross all these hurdles... i'll pray... i'll go with you and if you have to go,pls come back... pls come back and don't forget that i'm waiting... i don't want that matter to occur two times... i'm really scared... pls Allah... lend me YOUR strength... i need it.. i really need it... i must smile... i must smile... i must...

Labels: don't ever forget that i'm here...

sem 3 yg prgi ke Penang... tahniah ats komitmen yg diberikn... hihi...



*me? i had a great time for sure... ^_^



*Muneeer... pngorbananmu dilht YG MAHA ESA... ^_^




* fasi trbaik! Afiq!!! wuhu!



* Abu... wlaupun letih... jia you!



* YUS! tk sangke kau prgi... best lah kau... ^_^

Labels: i'll be waiting...

ni lah gmbr2 yg dipetik dr programme Usuluddin... have a nice look around! ^_^



















"kau hancurkn hatiku... hancurkn lg..."
fuhh... lagu...hikhik...

^_^ hye! salamz... Syirul baru je balik dr Penang... SMART kat sane? wlaupun byk tidur tp... FANTASTIC! Alhamdulillah... sumenye ok... byk bende jd sepnjng kat sane... i'll update the pics later ok...

1st,agknye sbb cuaca panas sgt dan Syirul sakit kepale, Syirul pengsan... aaaaaaa!!! malu3... dh lh kene angkat masuk bilik... dan di ats sbb kejadian ni, mrk2 yg brkenaan nk elakkn Syirul dr trlibat dgn muhasabah diri pd mlm tu... tp... sbb nk elak punye elak... trjdlh prkr ke-2...

2nd, akak tu ajk Syirul prgi teman die mkn ubat kat bilik. syirul teman je lah.. tanpe disangke2, mrk2 yg berada di dewan tu tk tau Syirul naik ats, dorng dh kelam kabut cari Syirul igtkn Syirul hilng... huhuhu... GOMEI! >_<>

3rd,bile nk balik tu,bag yg Syirul bek ade vest sume,Syirul tngglkan kt dlm bas... tp tkde. kecoh satu bas cari bag Syirul lg2 yg lelaki kat dpn tu tlg cari...hihi... tk sangke. Syirul relax je kt blkng... tp akhrnye bag tu dijumpai... kak Sabirah yg bwk skali mase turun bas.. ouh... thnks sgt3...

and something did happen... something... tp tk tau lh ape plk jd lps ni... blm pape,ari ni sakit hati lg... part and parcel of life eh... dh lh asik nk tidur je... sakit2... Astaghfirullah... klau asik nk tutup mate je... baik mati je. mcm tgh practise nk mati plk. hihi... mrapu2 je... dhlh smlm mamai turun bas prgi the mall dan mamai tu smpai naik bas balik... teruk kn...

k lah... tu je... pics programme,i'll update soon ok... best... tahniah seniors,Usuluddin... ^_^

Labels: if i let go, it still hurts..., it'll hurt more but if i hold on

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