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born again!
Saturday, 27 June 2009 | 2:47 pm | 0 star
yippie....!!!!!!!!!! it's been so long bloggy!!! miss you miss you miss you! hihi... hye to all! ^_^ it's been some time since the last time i updated me blog... thinking of changing the skin but there seems to be some problem with the wireless no? if only there's broadband... and thnks much much much to Feesa for lending me her laptop.. thnks cutie pony.. guess what? i was born again! huhu... just kidding... but seriously,i feel like this since i went to Kulai after so much of obstacles...had to wait for 3WEEKS to get my passport back... broke down a few times... *klau aku jht,kene org yg hntr pasport to ngn aku...* at last,bpk call,baru die bg... that night itself,my parents with cik Yah and wak Cob fetched me... thought of going to Kulai that night but then again... it was late at night so i just didn't want to trouble anybody anymore... *ALL THESE HAPPENED LAST WEEK* so on Monday, we went to Malaysia early in the morning and finally... FINALLY... after going through the hurdles and obstacles,i met this person and i love that day... *it's hard to tell what happened there so just let me keep to myself* but... something so simple had happened and the effect is greater than any of the things that had occured to me... i want to go there again and i'll make sure i will... tho good thing is, mom and dad love the place too... also cik Yah and wak Cob.. it's a relief... i'll just let you know one thing. *the place is very near to my family's 'story'* but that'story' is a secret too... so i have to syyy... ^_^ thnks a lot and a lot and a lot to my very special someone... it has something to do with him and that's what i want to tell... he: _ _ _ tu belahan jiwa die... sbb tu klau _ _ _ tkde die dh cari kt mane _ _ _ btl tk? i was like... tuuuuuuuut... dlm hati... mane die tau aku mcm ni... and everyone was like trnganga sbb die serious ckp mcm tu. mk mcm "eh...!" and he... he: btl... _ _ _ tu bdk baik. knl die dr kck lg... handsome tk die? and i was like dh brpeluh2... jantung pun dh DAP DUP DAP DUP... i just smiled and laugh.. what did you expect me to say? i just want to go there again... just I'M VERY SORRY that i can't tell in detail... i don't know why... just like this someone said,it's hard to believe... yes. it's not easy to believe... but i just believe and it happened... i'm ok now... i really am ok now... believe it or not... maybe certain people will say... -btl ke? -kene hati2 nnt 'die' dtg lg... -btl ni dh sht? YES I AM... that thing is still in this world but not in me... yes maybe it will come back that's why i need to go there again... it's not finish yet... just suplicate for me ok? that's more than enough... ^_^ for u guys that have been worrying and helping me... i love you and thank you... i am fine now... insyaAllah... Ameen... ^_^ so that's that... lpr gile ni... nk mkn... pip ngn KIna dh pnggl2... i'll try to update more soon... there's so much to tell so c ya! -Syirulhuda- Labels: my soulmate is him...Ameen... aduhai...
Wednesday, 10 June 2009 | 4:00 pm | 0 star
soo... what? hmmm... after reading kak ayu's blog,i forgot to say something especially to Afiq,Muzakkir and you Abu... klau awk bace lah... hihi...lots of thanks and many sorries are not going to repay all of you... but still... i'm going to say these thanks and sorries... Terima kasih dan sorry sgt3... thnks Afiq sbb dh 2 kali drivekn Syirul gi hospital when i was struggling to breathe... thanks to Muzakkir sbb tlg hntr kak Ayu balik dan hntr Syirul gi hospital... and Abu... thnks sbb cari org yg tau gi hospital serdang dan pecut motor tu utk smpai ke org tu dan trm ksh sbb ikut. klau tkde ni 3 mase due kali tu,wallahualam ape jd... actually,i was very aware of what happenened and what all of you did those nights... just tak blh nk kate ape sbb keadaan yg tk mengizinkn... and sorry... sorry sgt3 sbb susahkn korng 3 ni yg baik hati sgt3... wlaupun tgh ade krj,tp tetap ade... specially for you... thnks for ur concern... it means a lot to me... so... ape jd 2 mlm ni? TERUK. tu je 1 word yg blh describe. tp mcm yg kte tau,sume kesusahan adlh ujian dan dugaan wlaupun sbnrnye tu satu nikmat. kpd semua yg tk trsebut name2 especially my spore friends,yg duk serumah dan yg kt dpn tu.. my msia friends yg turut mengambil brt dan kakak2 tryg yg sntiasa ambk tau perkmbangn Syirul dan mmbantu,THANK YOU... klau blh balas kebaikan korng,Syirul akn balas. tp Allah lbh mengetahui dan smoga korng semua ni mndpt kebaikan yg sebaik2nya.. Ameen... now... nope. just couldn't get my passport and so i have to wait until next week... just pray that i can hold on for another week and to not collapse again and again... to gather all my strength so that i'll keep myself safe... it's hard but i'm going to do it now and then.. td kluar je dr korporat,i burst into tears while calling mom as i broke down for having so much problems that are unsettled still... poor Muneer... tgh nangis2 tu,die tgh pujuk,sempat lah beberapa manusia yg knl die menegur... nsb baik lps tu hbs nangis. then trserempak 'ayah' a.k.a. abg Hafiz Hafifi yg trsgt slalu merisaukn daku... almk... kene klentong skt ni ckp pnt pdhl nangis.. huhu... tp mmg pnt pun tau. tk tipu tu... tak2... mane ade kn3... then tgh crite2 ngn Afifah kt rmh... my phone rang so i took the call... bdk ni dh lh ckp skt nye kasar kn... tp dgr suare die je blh jd sedih sbb tgh sedih...jd... tresak2 lh aku menangis... si die yg tgh brckp dgn penuh kekasaran ni tibe2 je... "yul... yul... knp nangis ni..." (out of concern nye suare) mase tu... nk ktw je tp kesedihan mengatasi sgale2nye... huhu... thnks for ur concern k... i appreciate it a lot... thnks thnks thnks to this someone... mungkin ape jd skrg ni tak mnjamin pape... but no one knos what is in store in HIS hands for us... mane lah tau... mane lah tau je... so that's that... going to c ya soon alright? signing out... ^_^ what is LIFE?
Thursday, 4 June 2009 | 3:01 pm | 0 star
KEHIDUPAN...mcm yg Syirul slalu kena buat... letak telapak tangan kat dada, tutup mata, senyap, rasa denyutan jantung kte dan fkr... APA TU KEHIDUPAN? hidup Syirul msh blm cukup utk Syirul jwb soalan tu... trlbh lg sbgi remaja... Syirul tk tau jwpn kpd soalan yg Syirul sndiri tny diri sndiri dan org lain... sbb Syirul msh cari lg siapa Syirulhuda yg sbnr... btl tk? i read my diary... everything was so lovely... my new life, my new chapter of novel, it's so beautiful that i nearly cried... but days went by,and came that stories of miseries... sedih sgt bile kte bace kehidupan kte yg lalu, penuh dgn senyuman,kgmbiraan, suddenly... OUT OF SUDDEN... BOOM! change... change until now... prnh tk rase... rindu pd kehidupan lama kte? you know... when i was able to smile or laugh and i meant it when i did it... but now... stiap kali senyum atau ktw... FAKE. that's the only word that can describe my feelings,my situation. -_- so what's going to happen? no real smile, no meaning laughter... just FAKE ONES... how despicable... how pathetic... you must be bored... reading these kind of stuff... about miseries and all... tringin sgt nk Syirul yg dulu.. serious... Syirul dh pnt sgt... i must do something about it now... and i mean... MUST. smlm dan beberapa ari sblm ni... Syirul kene lg... yes yes i know... i can't cry now... even now,when i'm typing,i'm shivering... tp tk tau knp... Syirulhuda teruk sgt skrg ni... teruk sgt3... pls can i live my life properly... ya Allah... tlglh... andai ade seseorg yg KAU utuskn utk membantuku,maka biarlah dia muncul skrg... waktu ini... saat ini dan aku sedar akn kehadirannya... ya Allah... hny KAU yg blh mengubah semuanya... hny KAU ya Rabb... maka bantulh aku... pls... someone... help... ya Allah... aku kehilangn satu persatu krn ini shj... aku kehilangn cukup byk ya Allah... mungkin krn aku trlalu byk mlakukn dosa... ampunkn aku... aku mrayu... ampunkn aku...kembalikn aku yg dulu ya Allah.. aku yg mampu trsenyum dan ktw riang... yg menyayangi semua yg aku ada... yg mnghargai sgala2nya... aku yg dulu... aku mohon ya Rahim... kembalikan aku... |
